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Old 12-01-2010, 07:51 PM
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Welcome to my new blog. The old one with the nervous title just doesn't seem fitting anymore. These days peace, joy and love seem like a much more apt way to describe the way I'm feeling. I'm coming to the end of quite a turbulent year. This time last year I don't think that I could have comprehended how different I would be on the inside by now.

To the outside observer my life looks very much the same but internally I have really cemented who I am and what I want out of my life. I've come to the realization that everyone deserves to be happy. The more people are happy the more of that happiness comes back to us.

I've come to see my husband's girlfriend as a gift to our relationship. Before her I had the fear that I wasn't good enough and that he was just settling for me until something better came along that he really wanted. Although the 2 of them have more in common on the surface than he and I do we have a history and we understand each other. It's kind of nice that he has someone to talk to who is into some of the same things he is in a way that I'm not. I also know now without a doubt that he loves me for me and genuinely wants to be with me.

I'm really also enjoying being a part of RP's world. She's an amazing woman and her energy draws really good people to her. I know there are times when she doesn't know where she fits in the larger poly community but I see her as someone who is holding a part of the community together. She doesn't hesitate to reach out to those who are struggling. She notices when people are in need of that emotional support and doesn't hesitate to give it. There is a diversity in our community, as in any poly community, of how people practice poly. I think that we're all pretty essential to show all the different facets of what living this life can be.

I had this fear early on that openly having other partners would screw up the kids somehow. They just take it in stride. My daughter (who's 4) understands it as "some of our friends are more like family". To me that is a beautiful statement. We're doing something right here if that's the way she feels. My son (who's 6) really couldn't care a less about what his parents do as long as they're still paying attention to him! (although for the record I'm not allowed to shave my head like Mono because it would freak him out).

So much to look forward to. Life is good (which is rare for me to say in the middle of winter).

peace and joy and love to all

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Old 12-01-2010, 08:44 PM
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(although for the record I'm not allowed to shave my head like Mono because it would freak him out).

So much to look forward to. Life is good (which is rare for me to say in the middle of winter).

peace and joy and love to all

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Great post...but I think a little baldness goes a long way sometimes...errrr, that didn't sound right
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Old 12-01-2010, 09:18 PM
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What does baldness go a long way towards???
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Old 12-01-2010, 09:24 PM
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What a nice start to a new blog.

I love your daughter's way of looking at things. Kids are awesome in their way of adapting and adjusting.
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What does baldness go a long way towards???
ummmmm...never mind
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Old 12-06-2010, 10:57 PM
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I was joking the other day on facebook about liking telepathy as my favourite method of communication. It struck me just now that although I was only joking there are times that my needs aren't met simply because I don't put my needs out there to those who I need things from. Somewhere deep in my brain is the belief that "if they really loved me they would know what I need". And then there is the other thought of "if I don't tell them what I need I can't be turned down".

Putting your needs out there does put you in a vulnerable position. I don't like to think that I have needs that I can't take care of all by myself. Admitting that you have needs and desires and wants puts you in the position of being laughed at or rejected.

It's silly that all of this has just occurred to me. From this point forward I'm going to take a deep breath and allow myself to have needs and to give those I love the opportunity to fulfil those needs. (There isn't anything specific right at this moment...my brain has just been processing).
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This hits very close to home for me. My husband is big on Non-Verbal communication, my problem is that I don't read his non-verbal very well or my inter-galactic translator is malfunctioning

It gave me an idea. I am going to post notes all over my house saying "This house is surrounded by an Anti-Telepathic Force Shield that blocks all telepathic powers. Please use other forms of communication, verbal and auditory are prefered."
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hi derby, i really think that poly lifestyle is good for children to be a part of. they can become more openminded and accepting of lifestyles other than the traditional man and wife only married till death do they part.

and i'm glad that i know now that there are others who live this way.
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hi derby, i really think that poly lifestyle is good for children to be a part of. they can become more openminded and accepting of lifestyles other than the traditional man and wife only married till death do they part.

and i'm glad that i know now that there are others who live this way.
There's a number of us who live this way.
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Old 01-12-2011, 08:38 PM
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thanks loving radiance. since we are not very open about our situation, i'm not around others who are in this lifestyle, which is why it's nice tobe on forums like this. hv a good night.
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