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Old 08-25-2012, 05:08 AM
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has anyone got any suggestions on how i cope with the lonely feelings i get from being part of a 3 way relationship where i have to mainly remain a secret in public and in front of the kids, in fact alot of the time. i tell myself it doesnt matter, that what i get out of this relationship is way more important than public affection/recognition, but at times i struggle like now. please help
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Old 08-25-2012, 01:29 PM
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has anyone got any suggestions on how i cope with the lonely feelings i get from being part of a 3 way relationship where i have to mainly remain a secret in public and in front of the kids, in fact alot of the time. i tell myself it doesnt matter, that what i get out of this relationship is way more important than public affection/recognition, but at times i struggle like now. please help
The fact that you are struggling means that it obviously *does* matter to you, and that shouldn't be just brushed aside.

Do you feel that it needs to remain a secret for good, practical reasons? Or do you feel that it's pretty arbitrary?

One of the annoyances for me about polyamory is that it is looked down upon by so much of society - people aren't able to be "out" because they fear losing their jobs, or children, or something to do with family. I wish it could be different.

Putting all that aside, when it comes to practicalities, the challenges you face are close to those of a single person - what do they do to not be lonely?

Check this out:
http://shine.yahoo.com/love-sex/7-th...y-1390831.html

Any of this sound familiar to you? Are you by nature an introvert or an extrovert? Because the needs of each are quite different.

Can you talk a little more about what specifically you feel lonely about? Is it that you can't do some social activities that you would normally like to do with your partner? Is it more the "cuddling on the couch" type of thing?

If you can't have the companionship that you feel you need in the framework of your relationship, then you need to try to supplement it with other things in your life. In other words you need to have a life outside of your secondary relationship. This may be with other loving relationships, or it may be with friends and/or family. If you have time to spare, maybe volunteer at a local not-for-profit - a great way to meet people, even if it's to make some new friends.

Maybe some of this will resonate for you, maybe it won't - hope some of this is useful...
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Old 08-25-2012, 07:13 PM
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Hmm, so you're in a triad and being treated like a dirty little secret by the couple both in public and in front of their children. A little more info is needed, I think, in order to give more precise advice. How do they introduce you to friends and explain your presence to their kids? Do you live with them? Do you have any other relationships, or do they not "allow" you to be with anyone else? Are there any other ways in which you feel sort of set aside and not able to be yourself with regard to them?

Know that you do not have to accept and put up with crap that makes you unhappy.
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Old 08-26-2012, 05:00 AM
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This one is hard. My primary-ish relationship is with a man who also has a live-in girlfriend who's been part of his life for years before me. His family and the people he works with know her as his partner. He doesn't want to be out as poly with family or at work, so I'm secret from them.

That's the extent of the secret, though. Our friends know. My family and her family know. But still, I worry that if something happens to him, if he were in the hospital or something, I'd be out of the loop.

I respect his decision to be closeted. People at my job know nothing of my personal life, so I have my own closet there. It does hurt, just a little, to run into his coworker at the store and be introduced as his friend.

Social recognition is something that we value for our relationships. It's normal. And while a lot of poly people are closeted in some ways, not all of us are. I have a friend, who has two partners, and everyone knows (her kids, her work, her family, the PTA, everybody). I'm envious sometimes of her courage.

You do get to decide for yourself what level of secrecy is okay with you, and what makes you feel too insignificant. Don't presume that you deserve to be kept hidden away. If it makes you feel bad, you should pay attention to those feelings, and figure out how big they really are.
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Old 08-26-2012, 05:42 AM
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i live in their house as their best "friend" which is great but hardly anyone knows about the real us, in our small city it would be really shunned. and we dont want the kids to get bullied etc. its a hard one thats for sure.
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i live in their house as their best "friend" which is great but hardly anyone knows about the real us, in our small city it would be really shunned. and we dont want the kids to get bullied etc. its a hard one thats for sure.
Jaynine, thanks for this perspective - so your reason for posting here has less to do with the secrecy aspect and more to do with how to deal with the loneliness that you are feeling. I think that folks, rather than commenting exclusively on their mutually agreed-upon choice to live their relationship the way they need to, should try to focus on this aspect rather than talking about how this level of secrecy wouldn't work for them.
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