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Old 11-14-2011, 12:51 PM
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First off, I'd like to say, in only 5 days time, I'll have been on this forum for a whole year! What a year it has been too. Really been digging deep and trying to find myself. I've had ups, downs, lefts and diagonals, but still on the search for the right.

I have great thanks to give to a fair few people on this forum alone and other polys around the world who I've have been able to communicate with for this past year. You have all helped me a lot since the beginning of all of this for me. I hope you will be for a long time to come.

I would like to personally give thanks to both RedPepper and Mono, who were some of the people I first got to know here and whose relationship I felt I personally connected with at the beginning and kept me fighting for what I believed. We may not talk a great deal, but you are both lovely people, who do a lot for the forum, helping people out, always having smiles on your faces! Great role models and I look up to you both.

Another big thanks to both NYCindie and SNeacail, Or Indie and Seasnail [I have no idea, don't ask!] as I like to call you. =P You have both been around since close to the time I joined here and have been regular in many conversations I've had through these forums. I don't really talk to either of you outside of a thread, but I feel like you should be given thanks for everything you both do here too.

I'd also like to give a big thank you to sunflowershower, who only recently, has started to become a much larger part of my life. Though not a regular on the forum, I did first meet her here and have slowly uncovered a greatness that lays beneath. I have a great deal of love for you.

I hope happiness will follow you all through life.

Of course, I do no mean to offend anyone, by not individually thanking you, but there are so many of you that help my life be that little better everyday. This, here, is a thank you to all of you. =]


Now. This is just an introduction, to what I hope, is something much greater. My old blog [found here], had been a lot of my crazy roundabouts of the past year and, unfortunately, a great deal of unhappiness. What I can really say has been my most upsetting year yet. Even though, at only almost 20 years young; I hope my age is not an indication of something much worse to come.

I want to really start fresh, push a lot more out of my own life, celebrate my first year of many on a new journey.

Thank you all for reading, Somegeezer.

[PS - New avatar picture for the new me. Much clearer image of myself, too.]
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Old 11-14-2011, 05:38 PM
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You're very sweet, and thank you for mentioning me in your post. Although I don't feel as though YOU should be thanking ME. You are a very strong person, who knows (seemingly) what he wants from life and you give strength and courage to those you speak to. Thank YOU for allowing me to be a part of your life and for showing me that it is possible to be who are and to be accepted for it.
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Old 11-18-2011, 03:07 AM
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So today, I was attacked...

I've been up since 2 in the morning. It's now nearly 3 in the morning, the next day. So 25 hours I've been up.

I had a gig eariler tonight, which Cherry attended. I wasn't really expecting her to be there, but it ended up being rather good towards the end of the night.

One of the guitarists offered her a lift home with us and she lives not far from me, so I, as a gentleman, asked to escort her home. Just to make sure she got there safely. Unknown to me, that I wouldn't make it back to my own home unharmed.

I don't really know this guy. I've "met" him once. All I know about him is his first name and that he is kinda living with Victoria now. He has been hassling her all night whilst she was out, and I'm feeling that perhaps he has threatened her with something or other. He managed to take me down without me even getting in a punch, and I'm not exactly a bad fighter.
I was already on my way home when he attacked me. The pansy did have to take some shitty moves like pulling my hair. How disrespectful! When I finally managed to get onto my feet again, I ran to Cherry's house, as it was closest. He then went inside to grab a knife. At that point, another guy, much calmer and seems like a fairly nice guy, managed to keep him away. I thanked him with a handshake and then pinned myself up against a parked car. My head was spinning wild at this point, due to the head trauma this guy had already given me. When I managed to finally realise what direction I was even facing, I hobbled my way home. Battered and bruised is so many places.

My mum and Dave went down there to have words. No success, so the police have been called. Still no success. They haven't even turned up yet.

Remember how I said I have been up 25 hours? Well I now need to stay up for another day, just to make sure I haven't got a concussion. I have another gig saturday and feel I may have even less energy than today.

What a great start to my new beginning.
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OMG! Hugs! Glad your not hurt too bad.
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Old 11-18-2011, 04:55 AM
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OMG! Hugs! Glad your not hurt too bad.
Mostly scrapes and such from hitting the concrete. I may have concussion though. My thumb feels like it may be broken. Really difficult to move at all. Yet I'm most annoyed that my trousers are torn. I own a million shirts, but only 3 [now 2] pairs of trousers. No idea why, just never really needed more. But I may just restock. =]

Thank you for the hugs. Could really do with some real ones right now.
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Have you been to the hospital yet? Concussions are nothing to muck about with.

I'm so sorry this happened to you.

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Old 11-06-2014, 09:10 AM
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A long time away from this site. At least from writing. I still come around and read here and there. But for rather a while now, I've been getting most of my poly talk on over on reddit, or facebook.

I don't think there is much to catch up on in my life. But music is going on strong, still. and I did actually at one point have myself a partner who was just as poly as me. For all the monogamous partners I'd had before, it was quite the change. and lovely she indeed was. =]

Things didn't work out. But the love is still there. I think on both sides.

and I changed my name. I never felt connected to my birthname, and decided to make it more meaningful.

But of all that, this month is particularly important to me. Because exactly 4 years to the month ago, I figured out my connection to polyamory, due to this forum, and you lovely people. It gave me an entirely new understanding of myself, and started something big in my life. To how I view the world and the people in it, and how I go about my emotions. It was a stepping off point to really learn and understand more things about the way my mind works, too.

So really, thank you. Everyone who was a part of that. I wish you all the love and happiness. ^_^
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You are welcome! Glad to hear you're doing well.

Always good to hear from you, Somegeezer, even if it's only once in a while every now and then.
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I doubt you have it. Just who fucking wants to pay attention to shit that doesn't matter. I think same with memory. I used to have what is called eidetic memory. I could remember how many pages roughly were in each hand and where in the page it was, but if you read any of my posts I confused the Koran the the Cheshire Cat! (Well two kinds of philosophy? Lol)

I think that finding your bliss is the hardest thing to do in life and schools tend to know nothing about. Like stuff you in the grinder and hope enough come out the other side. If you come out fucked up "Well he's a problem child."

Sir Ken Robinson has some cool funny TED talks on this stuff.

Sounds to me like you like music, and computers, logic, which to me philosophy is a part. I have one of those fucking brains that can do too many things. I did not know this until I was tested at 28 or 30 and they said,."Yeah we can't help you. You got one of those brains." So I stopped think I needed one career. I do tons of different shit, sometimes I have money sometimes I am totally broke.

I actually designed a house in my twenties. This older guy was talking about a house he wanted to build and I just started playing around. I loved architecture because you have to think about the engineering, weights and loads, spans crap like that, but also how is each room used and how do you flow from room to room and finally how it looks and feels.
So engineering, function and aesthetics.

When I saw your nick I thought Old guy then WTF! Just turned 20 and understands how to build computers (I used to be a power users of a few things like how to get word processors to do shit they are not designed to do and make complex spreadsheets, but when my daughter, who has a computer before she could walk! Started telling how to do shit when she was 12 and I was like "Ah fuck it. Screw learning computers." I know I odorless but I got a zillion other things.

Sign language. I was on a train in Japan. kids from all over the world for some international deaf convention. They are from all over the world and jabbering away! Signs are the same in every language! Fucking cool! I was envious. I go to some country and I have no fucking idea what people are saying. Somehow Japanese came easily to me, but Korean, a Chinese, now Tamil fuck no. But I don't really give a shit. I'll learn a. Few words and maybe learn a few more,but the whole I gotta blah blah. Shit I fuck myself enough without adding THAT.

But cool you can be in any country and deaf folks all know what you A&E saying!

Music, computers and numbers are all related, they are sort of global thinking. Same for Law, philosophy and architecture. Go check some of them out. Russell is a gas, Christ I love all philosophers even guys I think are full of shit, because it makes me tighten how I see stuff and how to refute their ideas.

My big Advice? Cut yourself some fucking slack. Read enough of everyone's post here and we've been doing this a long time and still don't know what the fuck we are doing. We just know how to LOOK like we might!

I've been rich a few times, had successful companies, thought I was a businessman, then discovered I had a cool idea and found some people who fucking did know business and THEY made the fucking money! I totally suck at business.

The whole got a job, blah blah. I do that all the time, looking over there, then I discover they hate their fucking lives or are afraid they are going to be found out to be a total fraud.

So I started playing around with this house idea. And we would meet and have some beers and talk more. I go home and fuck around some more. I finally make all these house plans. I had no fucking idea what I was doing, just knew I needed a sharp pencil and a good ruler (only IBM and a few guys like that had computers!) I was just fucking around and I had my folder one day at the bar pulled it out the guy went nuts. Loved the shit! Total wtf.

He paid me a pot of fucking money for me fucking around. Life is like that. And he wanted it to look like an old house, like post and beam and some friends of mine wanted to learn to build that stuff, so I talked him into it.

Took us two years, fucking made a bunch of mistakes. Learn and fixed them and had a blast. Those guys went on to make a post and beam building company ai designed about ten houses, had to get an architect to sign off. Then, next twinkly bit caught my eye and I walked.

I don't know how to glue computers together with , programming and music together and maybe you don't need to. The idea we need to have a fucking career? I know a bunch of people who make a bit doing this and a bit doing that but all of it is shit they love to do.

Full time musician always seems like a tough go, but I know a group of doctors called the Jazz Doctors. These are like cardio vascular surgeons and brains surgeons crap like that and they also love Dixieland jazz. They are fucking awesome to listen to. They get paid to play jazz and they cut people open during the day. For them music is like a way to relax.

Program a little, fix people's computers, fuck there are folks who pay big time for that, program, or find companies who need programs that fit their special needs. Write programs.

You don't have to have a single job. I think the single job is scary shit. Some fuck head up top fucks up and you are OUT of a job and it is the only job. But if you have like five or six things you do. Hey the club we were playing at went broke, big fucking deal, I got money fixing computers and I got this and I sold a song I wrote.

You fucking sound like a cool guy who mainly is getting down on yourself because you don't look like Leave it to Beaver (maybe you'll have to google that it comes from the B&W TV era.)

Life seems to me to have a bunch of Oh Shit and Wow how cool. Right when you think you got a handle on it, some fucking truck does hit you and right when you think, Bridge, gun to head, pills, cut my fucking worthless throat some total accident happens and it is like Yeah I was just stopping to get a beer at the store and some guy was complaining about.... And now I got a free place to live and a free car! (Literally happened to me).

Life happens while you are making plans. Never seem to end up where we thought we were headed.

Cut yourself some slack, stop thinking you have to fit in some system and be grateful you got fired from the job cleaning desks! Yeah it sucked, but you sound way cooler than a monkey. It likely made you go look.

I had this policy when I was your age. I'd go find some job. One that would pay the rent and the bills and immediately go look for some ridiculously cooler job. More times than not I found it because, fuck I had a job. I didn't need this new job, I just wanted it.

Very different vibe, for the I need this job
I want to do this job.

You might have ADTBSD
Attention Deficit To Bull Shit Disorder

Memory. I started having problems with my memory. I was working with a hypnotherapist and she just said, you know you are in a just don't give a fuck mood. Just give a shit and you'll remember shit. Suddenly, I could remember all kinds of things.

I'm know most of all for the brevity of my posts!

Cool blog. I write a lot. Like books worth of shit. I don't think I could write a blog.
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