Carma
New member
Monday was the counselor's appointment and.... he ditched out.
He says he was scared. Then he says he wants a female counselor, not a male (I got the male because he was the only one in the practice who takes my husband's insurance, and they got us in so quickly! I thought it would do for starters, just to check him out, anyway. Oh well.). I'm not sure if I'll make another appointment -- it doesn't take much to make a few calls, himself, if he's serious. I was embarrassed to cancel the last one at the last HOUR.
He's staying away tonight again, and I am looking forward to another Wednesday night of peace with the kiddos. I love focusing on them! I am such a better mom these days!
I'm struggling with a lot of the grieving process, mourning the loss of the DREAM, maybe more than the loss of what we actually HAD. But that is still very painful. Sometimes I fly into a rage. So I try to keep my communication with him to a minimum. I recently asked him if we can write e-mails, instead of texting back and forth. We tend to lob insults and get little digs and barbs in while texting. Plus there are auto-corrects and misspellings that often turn things into jabberwocky! E-mails are more thought-out. He agreed to try this and see.
Love to all.
He says he was scared. Then he says he wants a female counselor, not a male (I got the male because he was the only one in the practice who takes my husband's insurance, and they got us in so quickly! I thought it would do for starters, just to check him out, anyway. Oh well.). I'm not sure if I'll make another appointment -- it doesn't take much to make a few calls, himself, if he's serious. I was embarrassed to cancel the last one at the last HOUR.
He's staying away tonight again, and I am looking forward to another Wednesday night of peace with the kiddos. I love focusing on them! I am such a better mom these days!
I'm struggling with a lot of the grieving process, mourning the loss of the DREAM, maybe more than the loss of what we actually HAD. But that is still very painful. Sometimes I fly into a rage. So I try to keep my communication with him to a minimum. I recently asked him if we can write e-mails, instead of texting back and forth. We tend to lob insults and get little digs and barbs in while texting. Plus there are auto-corrects and misspellings that often turn things into jabberwocky! E-mails are more thought-out. He agreed to try this and see.
Love to all.