Hello all, my name is Karina. I'm in a monogamous relationship with the love of my life. He is everything I've ever wanted, and more! He has shown me so much, and I'm a better person because of him. I've learned to be really honest with myself, and how to be completely 100% honest and vulnerable with someone. I owe all this to my spouse, and I'll love him till the day I die.
I love seeing him happy, doing nice things for him and spoiling him and It would make me so happy to see him enjoy life with another woman. He hasn't been in many long term relationships, and has been hurt by girls in the past. (I say girls because these people don't deserve to be called women.) He has so much love to give, and makes me so happy, I know life could be great if we had a third. I know it would enhance my life!
So, off the mushy stuff, I've talked to him about polyamory before, many times actually. He has been open minded about it, mostly. There was a brief period where he said he didn't want to try it because he heard it's a pain in the ass having two women nag at you. But it seems he is over that, and has been completely open to the idea. I am over the moon with excitement to try this. I get twitterpated just thinking about it. I honestly can't get it off my mind!!! So that's the problem: I can't stop thinking, researching, and talking about it. And I know it's probably so annoying to my spouse.
I feel like I have a desire to do this for the right reasons. They're not selfish reasons either, and I know my spouse doesn't think I want this for selfish reasons. But WHY CAN'T I STOP THINKING ABOUT IT!!!! Life seems like it would be so rewarding with 3 people. Yes, I know, it's a LOT of work, but like I said before I'm super honest and don't hold back anything. I'm an open book to my spouse. I would love to have a girlfriend best friend whom I can share great times with, make memories with, and love alongside my man. And it would make me so happy to see him enjoying life with not only me, but another who has both our hearts, and can challenge him in ways I don't.
Idk, maybe it's a sex thing too?? I have a serious fetish with the whole cuckquean thing. But not for humiliation reasons, for reasons of love and passion, and nonjealousy. I just think: Who cares if my husband is enjoying sex with another woman he loves?? I agreed and I want to see him enjoying every bit of life (within reason) to the extent that is enjoyable for us.
So, what can I do or say or what to get this off my mind, because I feel like I'm going crazy! Idk where to meet people, how to approach people, how to set boundaries. I'm lost! He doesn't want to try to meet people off the internet, and I'm pretty scared to do that anyway. But we're both chickens when it comes to trying to hit on someone. I've never really had to go hit on people, and he is shy and thinks he's being a nerd or automatically friend zoned.
Please help me.
I love seeing him happy, doing nice things for him and spoiling him and It would make me so happy to see him enjoy life with another woman. He hasn't been in many long term relationships, and has been hurt by girls in the past. (I say girls because these people don't deserve to be called women.) He has so much love to give, and makes me so happy, I know life could be great if we had a third. I know it would enhance my life!
So, off the mushy stuff, I've talked to him about polyamory before, many times actually. He has been open minded about it, mostly. There was a brief period where he said he didn't want to try it because he heard it's a pain in the ass having two women nag at you. But it seems he is over that, and has been completely open to the idea. I am over the moon with excitement to try this. I get twitterpated just thinking about it. I honestly can't get it off my mind!!! So that's the problem: I can't stop thinking, researching, and talking about it. And I know it's probably so annoying to my spouse.
I feel like I have a desire to do this for the right reasons. They're not selfish reasons either, and I know my spouse doesn't think I want this for selfish reasons. But WHY CAN'T I STOP THINKING ABOUT IT!!!! Life seems like it would be so rewarding with 3 people. Yes, I know, it's a LOT of work, but like I said before I'm super honest and don't hold back anything. I'm an open book to my spouse. I would love to have a girlfriend best friend whom I can share great times with, make memories with, and love alongside my man. And it would make me so happy to see him enjoying life with not only me, but another who has both our hearts, and can challenge him in ways I don't.
Idk, maybe it's a sex thing too?? I have a serious fetish with the whole cuckquean thing. But not for humiliation reasons, for reasons of love and passion, and nonjealousy. I just think: Who cares if my husband is enjoying sex with another woman he loves?? I agreed and I want to see him enjoying every bit of life (within reason) to the extent that is enjoyable for us.
So, what can I do or say or what to get this off my mind, because I feel like I'm going crazy! Idk where to meet people, how to approach people, how to set boundaries. I'm lost! He doesn't want to try to meet people off the internet, and I'm pretty scared to do that anyway. But we're both chickens when it comes to trying to hit on someone. I've never really had to go hit on people, and he is shy and thinks he's being a nerd or automatically friend zoned.
Please help me.