Hi, I'm new to this. I probably wouldn't have really looked into it if I hadn't met the people I did. They have known each other for about 2 years and they live together. Because of school, I cannot currently move in. However, I try to visit whenever I can.
Before I met them, I wasn't what you would call a sharer. In reality, I pushed most emotions down. After some time, I have started to share though, and it seems like all these emotions have come up. And while they were supportive at first, now it just seems to annoy them and make them think that I am going to leave (which I have no plans on doing). I feel like if I share it makes them feel bad, which makes me feel bad. And if I don't, I just get this build-up, until I explode.
Not to mention, I feel like I'm in the way when I am there. (My own issue. They try to include me, but even watching videos I feel like I'm going to ruin their time together.)
I just feel sometimes like they convinced me to let all these emotions out, and now don't want to deal with the fact I don't really know how to deal with them. Any advice on this would be great. Thanks!
Before I met them, I wasn't what you would call a sharer. In reality, I pushed most emotions down. After some time, I have started to share though, and it seems like all these emotions have come up. And while they were supportive at first, now it just seems to annoy them and make them think that I am going to leave (which I have no plans on doing). I feel like if I share it makes them feel bad, which makes me feel bad. And if I don't, I just get this build-up, until I explode.
Not to mention, I feel like I'm in the way when I am there. (My own issue. They try to include me, but even watching videos I feel like I'm going to ruin their time together.)
I just feel sometimes like they convinced me to let all these emotions out, and now don't want to deal with the fact I don't really know how to deal with them. Any advice on this would be great. Thanks!