SweetSensations
New member
Soooo, apparently I went out in the desert got came back with a few arrows in my a$$ so you can learn from my mistake.
I am upset with myself because I didn't put the condom on the bedside. I saw his cock and remember thinking, I don't want my saliva cleaned off I don't want the oil cleaned off. Both men have put an enormous amount of trust in me to be condom safe. MM even though he is a self proclaimed germophobic, trusts me to use condoms outside our relationship. MM, could lose his account in my city but is still willing to meet with me.
Wow, what a costly oxytocin high mistake. New STD testing, and waiting 3-6 months to see if I have HIV/maybe getting Dr. Feel good tested to see if he has anything.
Honesty or lies? I am way above average for truth. Would it behoove me to tell MM that the condom slipped off and so I need to go get STD tested ...yadda yadda? Should I suck it up and tell the truth which will probably hurt him.
Dr. Feel Good texted me and says come over for rendezvous, in the Jacuzzi with conditioned water and I will make you some Gumbo and wine.
He asked, do you want me inside? All I could think was please oh god yessss, please stick it in. Now I gotta tell MM that I was irresponsible and need to wait 3 wks to get STD tested. I just can't believe I made a conscious decision to do that and that I wasn't thinking condom, I was thinking fellatio oil on penis. I usually also have an insulated cup with water by the bedside to wipe away most of the germs/ oil. BTW, grapeseed oil is good for a massage and fellatio. I didn't mind the taste. Gotta get those omegas somehow.
About a month ago I told MM to go ahead and look for a woman in case he lost his account here he had a better chance of being set up with a new woman in his own city since he is so particular about her being clean. Wow reality is sobering.
I come from a sexless marriage these two men are my sexual mates and I have a loving H.
I am upset with myself because I didn't put the condom on the bedside. I saw his cock and remember thinking, I don't want my saliva cleaned off I don't want the oil cleaned off. Both men have put an enormous amount of trust in me to be condom safe. MM even though he is a self proclaimed germophobic, trusts me to use condoms outside our relationship. MM, could lose his account in my city but is still willing to meet with me.
Wow, what a costly oxytocin high mistake. New STD testing, and waiting 3-6 months to see if I have HIV/maybe getting Dr. Feel good tested to see if he has anything.
Honesty or lies? I am way above average for truth. Would it behoove me to tell MM that the condom slipped off and so I need to go get STD tested ...yadda yadda? Should I suck it up and tell the truth which will probably hurt him.
Dr. Feel Good texted me and says come over for rendezvous, in the Jacuzzi with conditioned water and I will make you some Gumbo and wine.
He asked, do you want me inside? All I could think was please oh god yessss, please stick it in. Now I gotta tell MM that I was irresponsible and need to wait 3 wks to get STD tested. I just can't believe I made a conscious decision to do that and that I wasn't thinking condom, I was thinking fellatio oil on penis. I usually also have an insulated cup with water by the bedside to wipe away most of the germs/ oil. BTW, grapeseed oil is good for a massage and fellatio. I didn't mind the taste. Gotta get those omegas somehow.
About a month ago I told MM to go ahead and look for a woman in case he lost his account here he had a better chance of being set up with a new woman in his own city since he is so particular about her being clean. Wow reality is sobering.
I come from a sexless marriage these two men are my sexual mates and I have a loving H.