Oh forum, how I miss thee.
It's been a busy busy week and isn't letting up. Right now I am gearing up for tonight's big burlesque show. First big show since the Christmas one... actually before that, as we have some performers coming from out of town. I'm so excited and nervous right now, but trying to breathe and take in a lovely sunny day here.
Updates. Okay, let's see.
Leo's wife has contacted PN and wants to hang out. I am fine with that and encouraging it, but also very emotional about it, as well, as the intent is to talk about what happened this winter. At least, that's PN's intention. PN is anxious to hear what happened for her in all this, as all of us figure that it was all a grand misunderstanding and a moment of confusion, too much information and high emotions.
I am finding myself feeling very vulnerable and emotional about it. But whatever. Such is life. I'm not about to stop anyone hanging out because of how I feel. I just have to deal and get through it.
My new friend has broken up with his girlfriend. He has realized, through talks with me, and through his history with her, that there are parts of their relationship that are not going to change. He is keen to see about us getting together as an item, but I have put him off due to his break-up. It seems to me that the most ethical thing to do, in the spirit of compassion, remaining honest in my communication with her (as she is a closer friend of mine), and having integrity, is to go at her pace, and let some time pass before jumping into the idea that my new friend and I could be more than just friends.
He needs time too, as it's been a rough couple of weeks. He is finding himself bombarded with his own issues, emotions, and in need of grounding and new perspective.
So, we will all wait and see where all this is going. Little steps will reveal what could be and eventually what the best choices are. Part of me suspects that he will move on and that I am the person that was the catalyst in his continuing journey of self discovery. I don't know yet. If that is the case, it will be revealed.
Life at home and with Derby is great. It's been a bonding experience between us, in the event of this week's break-up of our friends. It's hard work being supportive and knowing where our own personal boundaries are. Our friends have relied on us in different ways and needed support this week. It makes things a little on the sad side, not to mention frustrating, when there are other things going on in life, and support isn't always easy to give.
So, dear forum, I hope to catch up next week. I have a hard time knowing that there are now pages of threads I haven't looked at. I am letting it go, but it's a strange feeling, just the same.
I hope to lose a pasty tonight, as they say in the biz. Heh.
After being in Vegas, I feel rather pathetic. But, whatever. This isn't Vegas, but we sure know how to have a good time, just the same.