@Karma-okay dear, whatever you say, ironicaly it seems the blog title fits us both anyway.
I'm sick. Been sick for days. Lost about 8 hrs of memory from my sugar crashing last night. I needed Karma to fill in the blanks. Thankful things came back the more he filled in. Still having issues keeping it up. That's the problem with being sick, it'll get all wonky and not having an appetite is no exscuse. I'm timing my meals to make sure I eat.
I want to carve pumpkins but Cricket is away for the weekend, and I don't have the energy to really do anything anyway. But I feel disconnected to the season this year. With Panda leaving on the first, I'm not looking forward to the start of the new year.
Got a nasty e-mail from my mom, I can't wait to be insependant of their support so they can no longer hold it over my head.
Karma is making some goos decisions for himself and I am so proud of him. I hope he sticks with taking care of himself for awhile. And remembering that as his wife, I'm his partner and he can share all burdens with me.
I'm looking forward to getting on our feet. To using this weekend, being New Years for us Pagans, as a new start. To kiss all the drama of the last year goodbye, and start fresh. I'm hoping to do my fall cleaning on Monday or Tuesday after Panda leaves. I'm hoping to get some job apps out this weekend. Karma is getting started on getting accepted to an electricians apprenticship program. We get my car back on the 5th. And I have an interview for a job in a bakery in Ohio on the 5th as well. I hope I can find something here though. I don't want to live with my parents/ be away from my husband for over a month.
But I am taking the positive that's there and growing it. This will be a good year. I 've decided it, so it shall be. Fuck all the negative and the drama. I've learned, I've grown, and now I'm going to use those lessons to make this year kick ass.
So as I do every year here are my goals for the coming year:
Pass all classes and progress in obaining my degree
Seek employment in my field
Support Karma in career training, and gaining employment
Become independant of parental support
Work on paying down debts
Get in touch with Dr's about weight and inability to lose it
Get apartment clean and organized to a point of livability (buying organizing tools for Karmas darkon gear is a big step in the goal)
Work on finding hobbies and doing things for myself
Encourage Karma to do the same
Continue building and growing relationship with Cricket in a positive light
So with all that said. I'm looking forward to my new year. I hope you are as well. I hope you all have a positive and fulfilling new year. A fun and slightly naughty Halloween. And a safe and happy weekend!