Bluebird
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Well, the chaos is over and life is trying to get back into the groove around here. I cannot say enough positive things about how wonderful it was to have a lover and helpmate with me while DarkKnight was gone. PunkRock really showed me a huge positive with this type of poly. He promised, followed through and kept things ticking.
The funeral was very stressful for everyone, but it went as well as one does, I suppose. My youngest daughter - who is almost 17 - had diarrhea that night while we all went to the local donut shop. Poor PunkRock - he waited in my minivan with her while I and my other two children went in to get donuts, and went we came back, the smell hit us. My daughter was horribly embarrassed, but we got her home and in the shower. She wasn't sick - I am sure it was just the stress of the last couple of weeks. Anyway, I came back outside to check where she had been sitting, and it looked as if she had SPRAYED a garden hose from her butt all over the back seat! It was horrendous. I have no idea how she got it so high! PunkRock was a trooper there too - I did the scrubbing, but he passed me wet wipes and cleaning spray. No complaints.
Gawd, I love this man!
DarkKnight is home and it feels so wonderful to have him back beside me.
Last night the three of us played trivia and today we all went to the local Amish market for lunch and some grocery shopping. I felt so much love from my guys - being all together with them, with them flirting with me, and smiling, rubbing my back - it's just wonderful!
What else? On Monday night my oldest daughter (23), PunkRock and I went to play trivia and C3 came and met us there. I hadn't seen him in a while at the game store, so I invited him out. I didn't notice, but my daughter said he was hella nervous - she said his hands were shaking a lot. He seemed perfectly fine to me. *shrugs* He looked cute, as always. He was actually pretty good at trivia! We invited him to play again with us at a later date.
He gave me a big hug before and after. I didn't feel any crazy sexual attraction like I did before. I wasn't generating any energy in that regard, actually. I still find him a very attractive man, but his continued rejection of me being married and now me being involved with PunkRock, well, it has dampened down that get up and go feeling.
He messaged me a bunch afterward, thanking me for inviting him, saying he'd love to play again, and saying that PunkRock and I were adorable together. It was a little bit much, actually.
I don't know. I didn't feel horny for him at all - like zip - but I have zero doubt that if he expressed interest that I would respond. I would definitely be interested. However, I have no real desire in having a third right now. I don't know if I will in the future. I do know that I would think about it though, if it were expressed.
He didn't though, so right now, we are friends and I am happy with that!
The funeral was very stressful for everyone, but it went as well as one does, I suppose. My youngest daughter - who is almost 17 - had diarrhea that night while we all went to the local donut shop. Poor PunkRock - he waited in my minivan with her while I and my other two children went in to get donuts, and went we came back, the smell hit us. My daughter was horribly embarrassed, but we got her home and in the shower. She wasn't sick - I am sure it was just the stress of the last couple of weeks. Anyway, I came back outside to check where she had been sitting, and it looked as if she had SPRAYED a garden hose from her butt all over the back seat! It was horrendous. I have no idea how she got it so high! PunkRock was a trooper there too - I did the scrubbing, but he passed me wet wipes and cleaning spray. No complaints.
Gawd, I love this man!
DarkKnight is home and it feels so wonderful to have him back beside me.
Last night the three of us played trivia and today we all went to the local Amish market for lunch and some grocery shopping. I felt so much love from my guys - being all together with them, with them flirting with me, and smiling, rubbing my back - it's just wonderful!
What else? On Monday night my oldest daughter (23), PunkRock and I went to play trivia and C3 came and met us there. I hadn't seen him in a while at the game store, so I invited him out. I didn't notice, but my daughter said he was hella nervous - she said his hands were shaking a lot. He seemed perfectly fine to me. *shrugs* He looked cute, as always. He was actually pretty good at trivia! We invited him to play again with us at a later date.
He gave me a big hug before and after. I didn't feel any crazy sexual attraction like I did before. I wasn't generating any energy in that regard, actually. I still find him a very attractive man, but his continued rejection of me being married and now me being involved with PunkRock, well, it has dampened down that get up and go feeling.
He messaged me a bunch afterward, thanking me for inviting him, saying he'd love to play again, and saying that PunkRock and I were adorable together. It was a little bit much, actually.
I don't know. I didn't feel horny for him at all - like zip - but I have zero doubt that if he expressed interest that I would respond. I would definitely be interested. However, I have no real desire in having a third right now. I don't know if I will in the future. I do know that I would think about it though, if it were expressed.
He didn't though, so right now, we are friends and I am happy with that!