OMG TODAY WAS AWESOME!! Thank you My M.
I am VEHEMENTLY opposed to "nothing"!
THAT is the worst punishment in the world.
I know that there've been questions about "how on earth can you do D/s if you don't do punishments?
Well-I guess now you know! I don't need or care for humiliation or physical beatings. So it's not a part of our D/s. But there are ways to let your sub know and feel the pain and suffering of their bad behavior that are MUCH MUCH more significant to a person with my mind. Nothing-that's flat horrid.
AFTER THIS MAY BE TMI SO IF YOU HAVE A DELICATE STOMACH OR MIND-STOP READING HERE!!
So-last night I just needed release, per our D/s I'm s'posed to ask before I play with myself. So we had a playful time on the texting. I texted Maca sexy thoughts of what I'd like him to do one day while I'm home next month and he got himself off reading them.
Then he returned the favor. God-I was faster than him, OBVIOUSLY there was some pent up tension there!!
Today I decided it would be nice to continue the experience. Our baby girl was still asleep when I got up (rare) so I slipped in the kegel balls (I'm supposed to wear them all the time, but we made allowances for circumstances while I'm here as I share bed and bath time with the kids which makes it HARD to get them in and out without an inappropriate scene).
OMG they felt SO good wiggling around inside of me today! That was AMAZING.
I was texting Maca as I put them in and got ready to go and he was texting back really sexy, suggestive things, so I opted to take a chance and see if I could manage what we call "the teardrop". I have had health issues that made it impossible to do anything anal. We haven't tried in a LONG time.
But I decided-I have the time alone in the bathroom, happen to have the bag that holds the lube and the plug-why not try?
So I put it in, it slid in with no pain, just a little stretching and slight (very slight which was cool) discomfort.
I've kept both in all day and when the kegel balls wiggle-they make the teardrop move too.
One of the coolest things about this (I swear it wasn't arbitrary why I am writing all this out)
is that for 24/7 D/s it's important that the sub (that'd be me) be conscious of and aware of the Dom all of the time. Even if the Dom isn't present.
When he made the rule for the kegel balls all of the time and the teardrop whenever possible-it was an amazingly great idea. Because every time I move even slightly-my mind is instantly turned to him. I am conscious of the sexuality of our relationship, the intensity, the fact that he's got control and I need to follow his lead-even if he's not standing there.
It does in fact make me self-conscious, even though I KNOW that generally speaking no one can tell what's going on, I KNOW that I am getting highly turned on and wet, getting so close to orgasm that I can barely stand the touch of my clothing against those sensitive parts of my body. I find myself often getting pink in the cheeks because Maca is totally turning me on beyond words-even though he's miles away.