So I am just looking for some non-judgemental people to share this with, as I do not have anyone in my life I feel like I could talk to about it and am not ready to explore face-to-face counselling. I am very grateful to have found this forum.
Some background on me...I am a heterosexual female in a very long term committed monogamous relationship that is awesome on every level. I am looking forward to getting married and living happily with my fiance D.
Enter my best girlfriend M of 6 years. I have never been attracted to a woman ever in my life until I met her. I have wondered about and struggled with my feelings for awhile and chosen to ignore them and just love her as a dear friend. I have no clue how she would feel if I were to disclose my feelings.
To make matters more complicated recently, enter my girlfriend's boyfriend C. The moment I met him I felt a connection with him also, and pushed those feelings aside because I felt that it was just not right having feelings for your best friend's boyfriend. Or any other guy for that matter!
So one year later they are in a very serious good relationship and I spend a fair amount of time with them and feel very close to them. I have been very torn lately as I admit that I am in love with, and attracted to, both M and C, and my fiance D! Yikes!
Realizing this has just really rocked my beliefs about myself and I guess I'm just hoping someone out there can help me with any advice at all.
Thanks!
Some background on me...I am a heterosexual female in a very long term committed monogamous relationship that is awesome on every level. I am looking forward to getting married and living happily with my fiance D.
Enter my best girlfriend M of 6 years. I have never been attracted to a woman ever in my life until I met her. I have wondered about and struggled with my feelings for awhile and chosen to ignore them and just love her as a dear friend. I have no clue how she would feel if I were to disclose my feelings.
To make matters more complicated recently, enter my girlfriend's boyfriend C. The moment I met him I felt a connection with him also, and pushed those feelings aside because I felt that it was just not right having feelings for your best friend's boyfriend. Or any other guy for that matter!
So one year later they are in a very serious good relationship and I spend a fair amount of time with them and feel very close to them. I have been very torn lately as I admit that I am in love with, and attracted to, both M and C, and my fiance D! Yikes!
Realizing this has just really rocked my beliefs about myself and I guess I'm just hoping someone out there can help me with any advice at all.
Thanks!