Hello everyone! So I am here to learn and explore this lifestyle, and hopefully get some input from you all on what and why my wife is seeking a polyamorous marriage, and if it's right for us. She just brought this up last week, and now I can't stop thinking about it. I have been struggling with the idea at times, but also it gets me very excited. I guess I'm most confused because of the fact she was so NOT accepting of my recent coming out as a closeted crossdresser. I told her because I felt like I didn't want to hide it anymore, and didn't want to keep a secret from her. We ended up going to therapy, and all has been ok, but I am still very scarred from the way she initially reacted to my coming out. She made me feel like a weirdo, and couldn't understand why I wanted to shave/dress etc. So, now that she has brought this up, I am excited, but almost mad in a way because I could be so accepting, when she wasn't. She is trying harD to turn over a new leaf, and try to accept everyone and everything, even if she doesn't like it. Does anyone understand where I'm coming from here, and why I'm a little confused and hurt? I didn't tell her I wanted to have others in my life, just that I want to put some panties on once in a while and feel pretty.
I am excited that maybe I could find someone that enjoys my kink, as well as having my standard relationship with my wife. She actually said she though that would be a great idea for me, and she wouldn't judge at all. I've really liked the idea of having someone who enjoys/accepts that part of me in my life as long as we are open and honest about everything. This is all so exciting, but I have to keep my guard up, as it seems so surprising that she wants this....thanks for listening everyone, and I hope to get some advice/input on all this stuff....I feel kind of alone, and am so glad there is a place to express my concerns and excitement as well.
Ps..ever since we had this conversation, she has been fantastic, assuring me she loves me and she has really put to rest the thought in my head that this is all about her. Maybe it is good for us both! Thnx again everyone!
I am excited that maybe I could find someone that enjoys my kink, as well as having my standard relationship with my wife. She actually said she though that would be a great idea for me, and she wouldn't judge at all. I've really liked the idea of having someone who enjoys/accepts that part of me in my life as long as we are open and honest about everything. This is all so exciting, but I have to keep my guard up, as it seems so surprising that she wants this....thanks for listening everyone, and I hope to get some advice/input on all this stuff....I feel kind of alone, and am so glad there is a place to express my concerns and excitement as well.
Ps..ever since we had this conversation, she has been fantastic, assuring me she loves me and she has really put to rest the thought in my head that this is all about her. Maybe it is good for us both! Thnx again everyone!