I have to stop.
I just can't do the whole monogamous relationship thing. Even being with the perfect man, it drains the energy out of me. I don't feel free any more. I feel like I'm some place I don't belong. It feels like an act.
I was born poly and I can't just choose to be monogamous. A monogamous relationship is just numbing to me. It's true that I haven't been depressed in a long time, but I haven't been elated either. I need to explore my passions and learn and love and grow.
So I broke up with "the perfect man" today.
I guess I needed some place to say that it's hard not being like everyone else. I tried. But I just couldn't do it. I need my love to feel free, not bound down by rules and possession.
I just can't do the whole monogamous relationship thing. Even being with the perfect man, it drains the energy out of me. I don't feel free any more. I feel like I'm some place I don't belong. It feels like an act.
I was born poly and I can't just choose to be monogamous. A monogamous relationship is just numbing to me. It's true that I haven't been depressed in a long time, but I haven't been elated either. I need to explore my passions and learn and love and grow.
So I broke up with "the perfect man" today.
I guess I needed some place to say that it's hard not being like everyone else. I tried. But I just couldn't do it. I need my love to feel free, not bound down by rules and possession.