Stubborn,independant, accustomed to making all the decisions,(mostly because there's no one else to), and more than a little contridictory in what I want. I know that it would be easier to take care of everything if I had help, but not having to argue over how to take care of things has it's plus' too. While I know I shouldn't change anything about me unless I want, it seems that the way I am scares the hell out of everyone else. I'm the friend that no one hangs out with unless they need me to fix something or help them thru something. I don't have a problem with helping people out, and it's great when i can see a solution to a problem, but I'm not everybody's mother. Par tof why I started looking at this site was because I hoped that if I did something different, I'd get a different result. You know what they say about the definition of insanity, lol. I'm just not some simpery little female that sleeps around. Unfortunately, that's all that seems to get any attention. Mama never taught me how to bat my eyes, she taught me to not wait on a man to take care of anything. An ex-husband that walked out on me and a six month old baby didn't help that lesson. Add to that the few times I've managed to start some kind of romance...they've never stuck around long. LOL One actually was mad at me because I opened the house door for myself despite having both hands full of bags of groceries. I guess it didn't occur to him to just say I'll get the door for you. I don't know. I know better than to let idiots make me feel less than I am but obviously I've got to do something differently. Add to that my growing interest in poly....I've always been mono but that's not what I think about these days when I think about what I want for the future. Anyway, you might also notice i'm more than a little tangential, which can make it a little confusing to talk to me, lol-so that's what I mean by difficult.