racer812
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K is (was) a heavy giver but something has changed. She is now selfish. It has become all about her. And because of that and everything else that has happened in the last few months we are going to separate, possibly for good.
She told me last night that she is not happy here and is unsure if she is unhappy with me or the situation. Her head is swimming she says. Then turns around and says she wants to be friends.
Tonite when we talk I'm gonna suggest that she move to nv where she wants to be. Take time for herself and figure out if I am to be part of her life or if we are truly done.
I feel so drained, emotionally and physically. I asked her if I should move to the extra bedroom, her answer was no. I told her that sharing a bed with her is torture, because all I want to do is touch her, hold her, kiss her,thats part of what we do (did) in bed together, snuggle. Her response to this was , you can still do that, I still want you to. Huh!?!
A close lady friend knows whats going on and told me that she did the same thing to her ex. Wanted to keep her options open was her excuse.
So, thats my last 2 days in a nutshell. I am preparing myself as best as possible to walk away from the love of my life. Perhaps it will be the best thing for us. I hope that she finds what she is looking for. I really do.
She told me last night that she is not happy here and is unsure if she is unhappy with me or the situation. Her head is swimming she says. Then turns around and says she wants to be friends.
Tonite when we talk I'm gonna suggest that she move to nv where she wants to be. Take time for herself and figure out if I am to be part of her life or if we are truly done.
I feel so drained, emotionally and physically. I asked her if I should move to the extra bedroom, her answer was no. I told her that sharing a bed with her is torture, because all I want to do is touch her, hold her, kiss her,thats part of what we do (did) in bed together, snuggle. Her response to this was , you can still do that, I still want you to. Huh!?!
A close lady friend knows whats going on and told me that she did the same thing to her ex. Wanted to keep her options open was her excuse.
So, thats my last 2 days in a nutshell. I am preparing myself as best as possible to walk away from the love of my life. Perhaps it will be the best thing for us. I hope that she finds what she is looking for. I really do.