That does sound difficult. You certainly do not deserve unkindness or insensitvity. The exact opposite I would think..
I hope you are starting to feel better...I really do. These episodes can leave bruises which take a little time, so you need to be extra kind to yourself whilst the bruises heal. Sometimes it is the case that people struggle with connection...I think that can often be based on issues around vulnerability. Well, their loss..
So keep surrounding yourself with the people that carry and bring joy...
Warmth from here