Oh dear Carma, I wish I could have seen you while you were here. I think you need to express this stuff to Sundance. Honesty down to the minute detail, everything you've written here and then some. Get it out, cry it out. He has needed consideration from you, now you need consideration from him. The lying he has done is huge and not acceptable.
The world opens up... when you do.
"Oh, oh, can't you see? Love is the drug for me." ~Bryan Ferry
"Love and the self are one . . ." ~Leo Buscaglia "