After two years of feeling like I'm head over heels for another woman, today I got the strangest sense of calm. For the first time, I no longer feel like I'm being torn in half, and the sense of pining is gone. I still feel a fondness for her, but I no longer feel a desperate sense of longing. The internal tension is gone, and it's very eery--like a loud café that has suddenly gone silent.
I'm now finding myself asking, "Am I sure I'm polyamorous?" It has been such a painful time for me these past two years, and now I feel ... nothing. I feel like I need to reconnect with my wife, to make sure that I can still feel love for her--I feel that still inside.
It's very weird. Has anyone else felt like this?