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Old 08-16-2011, 10:37 PM
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I didn't realize how much it was weighing me down. It was awful. Everytime I got a text from this person, I wanted to vomit. W could see the change in me the moment it happened.

And now its gone

On the poly front, I'm exploring WHY I'm hesitant to put myself really out there and actively looking. We're always open to possibilities, but as soon as someone starts to get close or makes any sort of "hey I'm interested in you" noises... I find myself suddenly busy with something else... not sure if it was because some of those were completely sexual, or what, but I'm looking at it.

Or maybe I'm just friggen scared because of how much pain was involved in the last poly experience and right now we're so freaking happy...
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