I feel your pain more then you can imagine V.
I have to agree to try your best to be true to yourself. I know its hard when You love someone to truly make sure that you are still being healthy to yourself. Just remember that if you cant be whole and happy then the loved ones around you will suffer also. Its a catch 22.
Im not the most verbally eloquint(spelling) person around but I know what your feeling and Im here if you need.
Peace and Love
" NO WORDDIES BE HAPPY"- My 2 year old baby girl