What if I had posted more openly on these boards?
What if I had reached out in a way that I was able to get constructive advice?
What if I had stayed in Victoria?
What if I had learned some lessons about myself and my marriage sooner?
What if I had known to define things so that everyone's expectations were on the same page?
Well, it doesn't matter anymore, because NONE of those things happened.
So instead I could think...
What if I find someone who interests me enough that I start dating?
What if I get lost in NRE?
What if I never find anyone else?
Its all good... because I could what if myself back to 1989 when I was first with my first 'love' and he threw me to the ground and hit me and instead of going with the kind strangers who offered to help me, I stayed with him...
So I prefer to think...
What if we just keep on doing what we're doing?
Because right now its working