Originally Posted by NeonKaos
My husband and I used to joke about me having "boyfriends" but it really was a joke up until a couple of years ago. Now that I have a boyfriend, we still joke about it.
Oh, I love good joking and I get this! But I took from the OP words that he isn't making a joke at all but phrasing things as a joke that he means 100% seriously because he's scared to be upfront and honest. Not that he doesn't have reason to be scared, but if he decides to go forward that fear is probably one of the things best left behind.