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Old 05-12-2009, 01:35 AM
marianna marianna is offline
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i actually have a huge fear of loss...well..ok..in general - but particularly in this new quad relationship. While he and i have known each other for years - this is a way different interaction. And since i'm the newest on the scene, i feel the most "disposable" for lack of a better word. The person who's most likely to be let go of if time/energy/whatever becomes an issue. i think that is mostly likely related to my own inner issues, and i'm more than happy to take responsibility for those. And i'm learning to sit with my fear, because honestly and truly, that type of security cannot come from really anywhere outside of myself. And if that happens, at least i can say that i didn't sabotage anything. Just taking this a day at a time some days, but i'm still breathing .

mari
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