Thread: An Epiphany
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Old 07-29-2011, 10:37 PM
Moonglow Moonglow is offline
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Default An Epiphany

I just had this thought about my experience with polyamory. I still consider myself something of a newbie... I made this decision to go into the relationship that I had last year with my eyes open and I risked my marriage and everything, but we all survived. Now I think about the individual and I wonder to myself, why did I fall so hard and of course I guess I am just bitter now. It has taken me all this time to recover and I wonder if I will ever feel the wonder of love ever again? I know this will sound really bad, but he was such a difficult, selfish individual and I feel like I wasted this precious gift. I am so fortunate that everything turned out the way it did but I think wow, what a waste. What a shame. Can I have a do-over?

Anyways if I am ever fortunate to find this again, I hope it is with someone who I won't have regrets again.


Edited to say... I love my DH, but I guess I am thinking like the NRE, stuff like that. I guess there are no guarantees that you will end up in a no regret LTR. Except with my amazing DH!

Last edited by Moonglow; 07-29-2011 at 10:40 PM. Reason: additional thought
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