This whole thing is changing the way that I am able to think about poly as well. i was so confident, secure, and happy. Now i can't get the thought out of my head that he would be better off with someone else. i can't help but feel that I will never be able to meet his needs in the way that gave me confidence before.
Honestly, I question my ability to easily deal with anything life throws at me. I have never felt threatened by other women. I have always had the opinion that I am awesome! LOL. Sure, I have things that i fret about, but they are minor. I have always felt secure in the fact that C would never leave me. I have lost all of that.
Do you think that illness/disease makes you more insecure?
I feel like I have to start in the 'New to Poly' section and deal with things that were never a problem for me before...