Ok, I must be saying this wrong.
I AM talking about a long term relationship(s). I am talking about sharing my/our deepest feelings, intamacies, bills, responsibilities, etc
Mine is not a porn fantasy, I only mention it because it seems it would happen every now and again, and from the outside it seems one of the perks of the poly lifestyle. I could be wrong. It's not that big a deal.
It just seems to me that finding myself in a relationship with two women I love and care about is just too much to hope for
I dont fantasize about two women to have sex, but for a more complete love.
I wouldn't want to assume a lifestyle that just afforded me guiltless indulgence, but I would embrace one that set aside the conventions of society and allowed one to seek out one's own happiness.