Derek (the long lost love) and I will be attending a queer men's "shaman's gathering" (a gathering of freaky shamans, healers and the like) near the middle of next month, here in New Mexico. He's coming from the East coast. We're driving about four hours together to get there. We'll be camping together, etc....
This is, of course, an astonishing development. Simply astonishing. And I'm nervous! We'll be spending a LOT of time together, after not seeing one another (or even talking) in so very many years.
We're going as friends. Friends who have been intimate, long ago. We'll be friends. We'll probably cuddle. We may kiss. Who knows.
My shoulders feel tight. I'm nervous.
My plane has landed. In a new and strange world. Grounded again. Earthy.