heart sore and exhausted.
C's first attempt at an outside relationship fell flat, and so did mine. C mentioned to H that he was cool with us being more than friends. H denied that there was anything more between he and i than friendship. ugh, its obvious to anyone around us that there's something happening between us but he doesn't want to acknowledge it. so thats that.
and damn if it doesn't hurt like hell, i don't know whether to disappear and lick my wounds or go on like i have no idea that the conversation ever happened.
the one good to come out of it is, i have little doubt now that both C and i are poly. i have serious feelings for one person while loving another, too bad it feels like crap.