Thanks for responding while on a bus. I do appreciate it. So what u r all suggesting is.
1. I define my own happiness and she defines hers. And it's ok if either of us do that independently? That sounds rational. But why should I not fear that she is running to him and away from me. She wants sex with him and not with me. Those are hard facts and real concerns for me.
2. I have patience to wait this out and not force the separation so soon. This means I would need to find a whole lot of inner strength that I am not sure is there.
I am trying. I hope u all see that. But I am only human. And this goes beyond all things I have ever felt. I can only hope that as I sat here wondering what she is doing with him that she is making some kind if progress towards her goals. I can't wait forever.