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Old 07-13-2011, 02:47 AM
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Default I am an admitted Jealous Freak!!

We have been open since January. I have to admit, I haven't exactly made it easy on him to go out and fool around. I'm okay with it, I just want him to check in with me and let me know that I'm still his number 1 even though he's out with somebody else. Not fair, I know. I just have really bad jealousy!!

Being that I know he's a relational person, and not the type of guy to gain enjoyment out of one night stands, I have suggested moving to a poly marriage. More a V, where he is the hinge. He is out of town right now and won't be back until around midnight, so I'm sure we won't get to talk about it tonight. But, when we do, I would really like to be able to tell him that I am working on my jealousy issues and that I have a game plan in place to handle it.

So, what do you all recommend?? What can he do to help me still know that I'm number 1 (we've been married almost 13 years) and what can I do to be content in that fact and not lose my mind? I know he loves me. I have no doubts about that. I just worry that he'll leave me anyways. To be honest, I don't have a good self image. Yes, I have a hot, sexy body. But, I had an accident several years ago that disfigured part of my face and I suffer from chronic pain as a result. So, I really worry that he'll find somebody else to be the complete pain free, beautiful package that compliments him better than me (he's hot too!!).
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