Thank you again JameeDee, your link was helpful and I appreciate it.
I have had a long day and although it isn't over yet I feel a bit more at peace. I am hoping that I can meet this woman and it is my deep hope that eventually I can even like her. I think this is part of the difficulty too is that it's all so ambiguous and unknown. She is probably just as frightened as I am and just trying to get some peace. I appreciate everyone's help here so much.