Okay, I'll try not to ramble here.... I have been married to my wife for the past 10 years, we entered into the world of polyamory if you will about 5 years ago. It started off as a discussion of fantasies, which lead to 3some talk, which lead to a mutual male friend getting in on the act. Not expected was the affection and feelings that grew between my wife and this guy. After much soul searching and 'research' we found out about polyamory and it worked for us, we fell in a good M-F-M triad (hopefully I'm defining this right).
It lasted about 4 years, and then for various reason came to an end. Since then we decided we enjoyed the extra spice, and having additional partners that also have at least some sort of emotional connection vs swinging/casual sex.
In the last year, my wife has had relations with 4 different people (we usually do everything together, although I am straight). We just had a friend over tonight and one thing led to another and I found that I did not want to be part of it, so I removed myself. Of course now I am somewhat resentful, yet at the same time we are very open and honest about everything, and it's not like I was cheated on or deceived, but for some reason I'm just not feeling it. Not sure if it's just due to my own insecurities, or perhaps jealousy that my wife has been 'having all the fun', or something else. I don't feel like I can be angry or mad at her, we're completely open and have agreed to this lifestyle, at the same time I can't help but not be excited about things at the moment.
Anyone out there have any experience in this type of thing. It's hard to talk to anybody about, unless they are familiar with it.
Thanks for the time!