Be gentle with yourself as you go through the emotional turmoil. Remember you're creating one of the biggest changes a relationship can go through, the best thing I did was post here, so that others could help and guide me.
and be gentle with your wife.
If I could change just one thing, it would be the anger and fear I expressed towards her. the feelings were completely normal, taking them out on t was not. I'm ashamed of how I behaved with her.
Walk this journey with your head up and a smile on your face. You may be surprised with what happens.
Be well FYM, and welcome to the party. I'll save you a seat in the sunlight.