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Old 06-23-2011, 06:17 PM
KnightValiant KnightValiant is offline
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Default Continued(more background on me and update)

Hum… it’s hard to say all that factors in, or what, if anything, to include. I come from an exceedingly broken background. As a young child I was heavily abused and neglected (both emotionally and physically). My mother was virtually never around as she was working 18 hours a day most days to pay for nearly everything in the absence of any income from my father. It is not that he didn’t have a job but rather that nothing he earned he could either report legally or resist snorting, drinking, injecting, or smoking. At some point or another, everybody in my life – sister, brother, friends, girlfriends, parents – everybody blamed me for everything or said I was a disappointment or a waste. Nothing I could do could please any of them.

So in an effort to prove myself, I ended up getting straight A's (honours with curriculum from college levels in elementary school, i.e. Shakespeare in 3rd grade and trigonometry in 5th... etc) in every class but straight F's in conduct. (Mostly as I’ve come to lately realize was probably to spend time with the only truly affectionate and loving role model I had, my grandmother, who would spend time with me during my suspensions from school).Besides my grandmother('s kind touch,i.e hugs,kisses and cookies,and occasionally the discipline of the ever feared abuela weapons the wooden spoon and the flip flop lol ), I have spent a good deal of my life both affection and attention deprived, despite the fact that I have always ended up being the go-to guy for all my friends’ and family’s problems, the mediator, and the impromptu Batman (“Help, Batman, Gotham is burning, save us!”).

As a result I’ve spent a lot of time both surrounded but alone because I have had to be strong for the sake of everyone else around me. I have spent a long time emotionally and physically exhausted. I will post more later today (some of my past relationships and traumas and how things are now). I just need a break from typing so I will get back to this later (that I suppose is enough to digest for now).
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