well, apparently some people don't actually read OKC profiles. I was talking to the girl from OKC via email. she must have skipped the whole blurb about me being married because once the topic came up, she flipped. guess I'll keep looking.
I don't think I ever mentioned that the wifes BF was a LDR. he lives in a different state. I've been doing alot better the past couple of weeks but my anxiety level has been going back up the past couple of days. shes going to see him this week. we've been married for almost 8 years. I know that she is going to sleep with him and it's killing me. I don't really know where to put the jealousy and fear. before I would project it at her and it would just push her away. I don't want to do that!!!! I'm halfway around the world, reassurance is a hard pill to swallow all the way over here. I know she loves me but it doesn't always feel like it.