so i just asked H if he'd like to go on a short trip with me, just a hang out kind of thing. he said yes after what felt like a really long pause(probably wasn't thou), then said let me think about it. ugh, that was painful and awkward, and the first time i've ever done anything like it. i'm starting to wish i hadn't done, what if things get all awkward and weird? i feel like such a fool, and to think it probably won't be the last time.