Thank you for your sympathy. I wish there was an easy fix to this but I love her so much and last night we had a long talk with alot of tears from both of us. I think she now realizes how much pain this is causing me. I know she is in pain to. We need to figure out how to make this work. She knows how I feel and now I am leaving it up to her. I never thought it would hurt like this. I am so afraid of the NRE with them that I think I will get lost or forgotten. Need to know how to deal with these feelings.