Thanks for putting it in that perspective. I have been sitting here beating myself up over what your right.. is the situation not me. The communication lines between us are closed right now because of me being my typical defensive self. Maybe one day I can open them back up and at least not lose the friendship part. It will just be different. And hard to get used to. Maybe it will happen. I know right now he wont answer me when I try to talk to him so maybe he needs to work out what ever is going on with him too. You guys are awesome. Thank you so much Mono for saying it the way you did. That really does make me feel so much better and makes me not wanna berate myself over the could of should of BS.