One of the quinessential qualities of romantic love is the risk of getting hurt.
Granted, loving more people makes the odds of getting hurt go up, mathematically speaking.
But from what you are saying about your relationship contraction and exploration of who you are emotionally, I think you shouldn't push yourself in any direction. Just let yourself feel.
You will find your balance. *hugs*
With all my heart I will love and not fail,
With all my soul I will fly and not fall.