I've just started reading the blogs and life stories and naturally went to yours since you were the first (only one so far) to welcome me here with some encouraging words.
Wow...... to add my praise to others'.... you are a wonderful writer... your words moved me to tears a couple of times. And as for the way you handle your situation and all the thoughts and emotions involved...... wow. Sorry, I'm not as eloquent as you are.
I dream of finding the acceptance you have for M and R. I've fantasised about broaching the subject of a poly relationship with my partner and in my mind (although this is not something I'd say out loud), I think, "how much do you love me? Do you truly love me enough to accept my needs and feelings?"
I wonder if I could be so accepting if the shoe was on the other foot and he was the one plucking up the courage to tell me that he had anOther. I hope so.
The day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.
~ Anais Nin