Keep your head up sweetie. There are many here who will consider your situation and ideas will pop up. I hope what I sent you helps too. Don't let yourself feel like a failure or like you aren't up to par with them. You are just as wonderful as they are and they know it-or they wouldn't be with you in the first place!
It takes time to work through the little idiosyncracies of life (heck if I can spell that one right now!) and with friends to support us-it's easier.
You can count me as a friend! I'm always adding to my list of friends!
"Love As Thou Wilt"