Thank you for commenting.
Yes I am getting something truly amazing out of this relationship... mainly that this man is the only person I have ever met who really seems to 'get' me.
Most people get 15%-25% of me. He gets 99%. And if poly is the one thing he doesn't understand, I can forgive him for that.
IT is very hard though. Sometimes I feel like it's unbarable.
And maybe one day, the thought of being without him will be easier to bear than the though of being mono.
If I reach that equalibrium, I will have to change what I am doing right now.