Hi Meera and welcome!
I told myself that I was going to get off this computer and GO TO BED!!! (It's almost 2am here in Europe and I have things to do tomorrow - and am starting off on a 1700km hitch-hike back home the day after.) But then I saw this thread and just had to jump in.
Just a quick comment which will put this thread in my subscription list and then it really is bed.
You sound like you're independent, intelligent, with your feet on the ground, and in love with yourself. [Some people use that last attribute as a criticism, but not me.] You don't need a relationship to fill some aching hole... or make you whole. I admire that. You'll be hearing from me... (yawn, stretch, rub eyes...)