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Old 04-30-2011, 11:09 PM
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Hi - I'm a 33yo married mother of two. My husband and I speak openly about my desires to be involved with someone outside our marriage. Whilst we've considered the whole swinging, FWB, f-buddy scenarios, I know I am wanting something more permanent and meaningful. My husband has no desire to have any relations outside our marriage but he does get a kick from seeing me with another man. For me, it's not just about the physical side of things, but very much about the emotional side too. Yes, I love the thrill of feeling wanted, the escapism of somebody new and the butterflies in my stomach but it's more than that. It's about feeling complete when experiencing the connection and affections with this other person. I feel that I have so much love to give, it doesn't fit into one pot. I don't want to lose this other person, nor make him feel he's being strung along, nor prevent him from finding happiness with someone else. I wonder whether a poly relationship could work - my husband knows how I feel, but I don't know if the other person could handle sharing me on a permanent basis. I guess as always communications the key but when I think how easy it could all be in my head, it doesn't at all seem that way ..... I love my husband as a person, but I'm wondering if I just want to have my cake and eat it. I love my husband more when he accepts how I feel about the other person - I wish it was more black and White x
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