I feel for you, and frankly hve some questions and concerns but I don't want to come off wrong. I'm new here and you seem cool, lol. Please take the following as intended..?
If I have ascertained correctly, you're 18 or 19 years old, yes? With no judgment passed on you in any way, I have to look back on my relationships at that age and think that you're looking for some really serious trouble!