I've never been very good at articulating emotions via the written word, but here goes.
I'm 27, straight with the occasional bi-curious streak, married and a mum to a fantastic little man aged 7. I have always been curious about the idea of multiple relationships and dated a bi-guy for a while who introduced me to swinging. This didn't really fit what I wanted out of relationships, sex is great but without that extra bond of love and affection I just felt used.
My husband and I have been in an open relationship since we started dating nearly 5 years ago and have had a rocky, challenging and worthwile journey with poly over this time.
My husband A, fell in love with my best friend from the get go. We attempted a triad, but the feeling I had for my friend were very sisterly rather than romantic. We lived together for a year where I learnt some very painful lessons about love, jealousy and coming out as poly. At the end we got on like a house on fire : flames, screaming and general chaos.
For the last year, I had been dating a guy; our friends knew, he got on with my Husband and I thought I had found a keeper. However, his ex-wife moved to the country recently and within 2 weeks they were back together and I was dropped as she couldn't handle the idea of him with 'another woman'.
Needless to say, at the moment I am crushed and disheartened. But I still know that a committed poly relationship is what I want... how to find one escapes me at present but I'm sure we'll get there
To all of you reading, it gives me great comfort to know that there are other people in the world who feel the same way I do and that there isn't something wrong with me.