Thank you. Yes, I'm checking out other threads. Right now, I'm in "the struggling mono" thread. I don't know for certain that my wife is mono, but I want to be prepared in case she is.
I have an appointment with a poly-friendly therapist tomorrow to discuss how to discuss it, as well as to have an unbiased person there to make sure I'm not full of shit--it can be remarkably easy to convince oneself of something that isn't true. I'm pretty certain that I am poly, and have often uttered to myself the phrase "I hate monogamy," and have often felt like the whole concept was a big fat ugly lie imposed upon most people from birth.