No Worries NYC and thanks Ray
No worries nyc, I get that you were trying to be helpful. I took it in good spirit and tried to explain my side a bit better. Hahaha, hope that wasn't read in a Seeker's screaming mindset.
And Ray, thanks yeah, it was/is my first adult relationship. Drew and Brian both knew that. They knew I hadn't done anything in terms of pretty much anything at all beyond that basic high school mess around curiousness, but never do anything for real deal. And to me age doesn't matter with them, Drew likes that I'm younger, and Brian is in the whatever it's just age category as me.