To make a long story short...I have some unresolved jealousy/abandonment issues. The situation between the three of this really brought up all these terrible feelings for me. I wish more than anything that I could handle the thoughts of my husband having romantic love for someone other than myself, but I can't. It makes me physically sick. It makes me mentally crazy.
Hubby and I are still together. Hubby and gf and I all still have mad love for each other. I just don't know what else to do. The thought of losing what we have makes me very sad, but if I'm crazy with jealousy is it worth it? I know in my mind that they will NEVER run off together, but my heart and stomach aches when I know they are alone. Does that make any sense at all?
I want her in my life. I want her in hubby's life, but not unless I'm there. Is that unrealistic?